You may have noticed me not on in the past 3 days or so. That is because I was in the hospital.

In the past month I have been losing more and more weight, not sleeping at nights, and constantly needing food and drink. It's been a slow decline, but then last week I lost 8 pounds and just got so weak, I could barely walk up the bunk bed stairs. They took me in to the hospital and I got the diagnosis.

I have Type 1 Diabetes.

Diabetes is a non-preventable disease. I didn't cause it. It was always there in my DNA, it was just a matter of when it showed up. Diabetes is basically the inability to break down carbs into energy. The immune system attacks the pancreas cells that produce insulin, which is the substance needed to get energy from carbs. My cells, now starving for energy, create ketones, which make my blood acidic, and use all the fat stored up in my body. This is why I lost weight and was constantly hungry. When they took me in, my blood sugar was at 489. That's almost dangerously high. But they got some insulin into my body and now I finally feel good again.

I am not angry about this diagnosis, in fact, I completely accept it. There's nothing wrong with eating healthy and being aware of how many carbs I consume per meal. I can still eat out, I can still drink sodas (diet), and I can still have birthday cake and ice cream and cookies and all that good stuff that is a little on the unhealthy side. I just have to dose my insulin accordingly and do some exercise. I can still live a normal life. All that changes is my diet, and my opinions on needles.

I am now home again and sleeping fine, in case any are concerned. Type 1 Diabetes will likely be with me the rest of my life, unless a cure is developed in my lifetime. If not, so be it! I'm alright.

That's all the news I have, for now.

Also, I created a song while I was in the hospital. I started it while I was tired and overall mad at the world and finished it during my stay there. It really reflects my mood during that time, I hope you'll take a listen.

Blurry: https://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/1166612?updated=1666463344