You may have noticed me not on in the past 3 days or so. That is because I was in the hospital.

In the past month I have been losing more and more weight, not sleeping at nights, and constantly needing food and drink. It's been a slow decline, but then last week I lost 8 pounds and just got so weak, I could barely walk up the bunk bed stairs. They took me in to the hospital and I got the diagnosis.

I have Type 1 Diabetes.

Diabetes is a non-preventable disease. I didn't cause it. It was always there in my DNA, it was just a matter of when it showed up. Diabetes is basically the inability to break down carbs into energy. The immune system attacks the pancreas cells that produce insulin, which is the substance needed to get energy from carbs. My cells, now starving for energy, create ketones, which make my blood acidic, and use all the fat stored up in my body. This is why I lost weight and was constantly hungry. When they took me in, my blood sugar was at 489. That's almost dangerously high. But they got some insulin into my body and now I finally feel good again.

I am not angry about this diagnosis, in fact, I completely accept it. There's nothing wrong with eating healthy and being aware of how many carbs I consume per meal. I can still eat out, I can still drink sodas (diet), and I can still have birthday cake and ice cream and cookies and all that good stuff that is a little on the unhealthy side. I just have to dose my insulin accordingly and do some exercise. I can still live a normal life. All that changes is my diet, and my opinions on needles.

I am now home again and sleeping fine, in case any are concerned. Type 1 Diabetes will likely be with me the rest of my life, unless a cure is developed in my lifetime. If not, so be it! I'm alright.

That's all the news I have, for now.

Also, I created a song while I was in the hospital. I started it while I was tired and overall mad at the world and finished it during my stay there. It really reflects my mood during that time, I hope you'll take a listen.

Blurry: https://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/1166612?updated=1666463344

Hello, Newgrounds! I have been working extra hard this month to bring you another release. You may have thought I was taking a break after that 20-song release I put out just last month (and maybe I should be), but I actually just started another project, which is now done!

Feel EP is finished, and it's easily my best release yet!

Track list:

1. Burn
2. Hurt
3. Hate
4. Feel
5. Numb
6. Heal
7. Hope

And I made it because I was depressed...

This has been a tough last couple years, and it's really getting to me, especially recently. Making music has really kept me sane, honestly, and I decided to make an EP exploring my emotions. When storms roll in, keep steady and wait for the rainbow. I can honestly tell you this: you may not ever be quite the same, but you will be stronger, nicer, and more understanding, because with uphill climbs comes the new perspective gained at the top. I cheerfully tell you that I got it all out with this 7-song release, and each of these tracks tried to recreate the emotion I was feeling at the moment. You can find more details on the individual songs themselves. I hope you enjoy listening to the journey that has taken place these past two years.

Here's the cover!

(Always the musicians, isn't it...)

It’s finally done.

I finally finished it...

The SCORE Project was started in January of this year to map out my growth as a musician from the beginning of 2022 to the end of the Score project. I’ve come a long way. Halfway through the project, something happened that altered the trajectory of my journey, and that was the SunVox 2022.02 Competition. Sawzer (10 year musician on SunVox) asked me to collab with him. Just seeing the way he used the interface and organized the song really inspired me to go big. I wonder if you’ll see the change…

Songs 1-10: before the Sawzer collab

Songs 11-20: after the Sawzer collab

So as it turns out, we are midway through June and I’ve only got one song left on the Score project. That’s right folks: ONE. My biggest undertaking yet is finally close to completion.

Have a nice day!

You can find my website here or on the link section of my profile.

After a long time of feeling slightly dissatisfied, I finally chose to change my logo! I was up for about two hours working on this, and then some more to perfection. I think it fits pretty well.

Made with a little help from my good friend, @SkuttenGamerGD, who’s still producing bangers, go check it out!

COMING SOON: The Score Project

I am planning on releasing a score of songs (20) this year, starting with Entity, which I have already released. Since I can't keep a secret even for my own good, I will share all the songs coming to the Score right on Newgrounds before it comes out.

Basically, every song I'm set to make in 2022 will go straight into the Score. It is my largest undertaking yet. I plan to finish it sometime around May or June, so I will have plenty of songs left in me for 2022, trust me. But don't sweat the long wait time... it will be out before you know it!

And when it is, it will be epic.

NOTE: Remember to check out my website, it will always have all the songs I make, even when they have been taken off Newgrounds and/or SoundCloud! Plus, it's super cool ;)

After all this time, I have finally succeeded in putting my music on GD! You can find me at an account of the same name (underscore8298). Happy listening!

Now that I’ve settled all that stuff about my style, it’s time to use it: CRYSTAL IS FINALLY OUT! Get ready, world…

I can’t figure out my style, guys… sometimes I’m making that chill synth wave stuff with nice chordy drops and whatever, but sometimes I feel the need to make some random drum n bass stuff and can’t be convinced otherwise. Like right now. I’m envisioning some really crazy dnb stuff for my next track (on a new ep that will come out soon perhaps), but it really doesn’t make sense compared to Severed Sunset and all that other stuff. Do I just combine the two somehow, maybe? Or do I have a style I’m just not sensing? I don’t know, maybe I’m just overthinking it.

Not exactly sure why I'm sharing this with you. Down in the links section you will find a link that says, "How I started." Click that, it will take you to a Google Doc that has a pretty interesting surprise on it.

Yes, what you are looking at are the very first pieces of music I ever wrote. It all started with a music assignment during quarantine: make a melody using Chrome Music Lab. I thought, "This will be so easy, I already have an idea in mind." BUT, I couldn't stack notes on top of each other. I thought, "That's terrible!" So, after the music assignment, I made a song of my own, following my own rules... and Walk the Dog was born. It was so fun, I made another one, March of Empires. And another, Victory is Ours. Soon, I was having the best week of my life, creating music and making my family listen to it over and over.

It was nothing short of awesome.

Then I had the idea for ALBUMS. I created the albums slideshow, and created a bunch of albums using random images off the internet. Not entirely sure if that's legal, but I didn't know any better. Vortex was my first album, and it was a major victory for me. I had literally created an album, and I was only eleven! My music teacher shared my success with a ton of students at my school, and I was that music making kid.

Albums to singles to albums to singles... a whole year, 3 more months, and at least 75 more songs went by... and I was a nerd. A joke. I was that weird Chrome Music Lab kid who didn't have a life. Now, I wasn't REALLY that, but that's what all my friends thought, and what they still think. I was ready to start creating for real. 75 or more C.M.L songs really drilled music theory into this thick skull of mine... I was all ready to go. After an entire day of research, I found SunVox: a $6 music making app with NO LOOPS. It was a steal. That is where I am now.

That is why I don't use Chrome Music Lab anymore. Although, I still hold a special place in my heart for the songs I made on it. In fact, I made the song Odyssey fairly recently just to be nostalgic. It was an experience. While I do like C.M.L. a ton, I don't miss it. SunVox is the perfect fit for me, and I hope to use for the next full year, 3 months, and 75 songs. Ok, maybe not 75 songs... that's a lot!

I don't know why I bothered to type this up, it's not like anyone looks at my profile anyway ;)